This have always hovered my mind since the time I conceptualized .Some questions had always baffled me ...
*Am I ready for this new endevour?
*Would I prove to be a good mother for my kids?
* How could I be a good mom when I myself couldn't make the right decision for me?
* What values would I teach?
* How could I guide when I myself needed the guidance of my MOM?
These five questions always perplexed me as to why I am unable to decide . As I had not planned to be a mother in the initial stage , it had happened accidentally , but now what.....?
Of course I had to move ahead, I had eight months to go ,so what .,...I just had to prepare myself for the new endevour. Initially I kept talking with my mom and asking her about her parenting skills ,she helped me a lot to curb out the darkened thoughts which had aroused the dilema. I decided that first I had to remove all the subdued fears which hallucinated me and this was my start. I did it .....I fell in love with my baby in the womb.I talked with her in my pensive mood and the happiness I gained created an aura which I feel is the binding factor of the mother and the unborn.
I was getting stronger day by day and also ready for my child .I thought that I could take care of my child without any help. But as days passed again my fears started curbing in ....Now she started going to school and her grades were not that overwhelming , I started blaming myself for the same ...It was here that I again needed my Mother for her guidance ,she like an angel always had a solution to all my problems .....So there I was .... I proved to be a good Mother (as all her teachers say till date ) and even the young mothers ask for my guiding tips for their child makes me thumbs up that finally I have proved myself......
*Am I ready for this new endevour?
*Would I prove to be a good mother for my kids?
* How could I be a good mom when I myself couldn't make the right decision for me?
* What values would I teach?
* How could I guide when I myself needed the guidance of my MOM?
These five questions always perplexed me as to why I am unable to decide . As I had not planned to be a mother in the initial stage , it had happened accidentally , but now what.....?
Of course I had to move ahead, I had eight months to go ,so what .,...I just had to prepare myself for the new endevour. Initially I kept talking with my mom and asking her about her parenting skills ,she helped me a lot to curb out the darkened thoughts which had aroused the dilema. I decided that first I had to remove all the subdued fears which hallucinated me and this was my start. I did it .....I fell in love with my baby in the womb.I talked with her in my pensive mood and the happiness I gained created an aura which I feel is the binding factor of the mother and the unborn.
I was getting stronger day by day and also ready for my child .I thought that I could take care of my child without any help. But as days passed again my fears started curbing in ....Now she started going to school and her grades were not that overwhelming , I started blaming myself for the same ...It was here that I again needed my Mother for her guidance ,she like an angel always had a solution to all my problems .....So there I was .... I proved to be a good Mother (as all her teachers say till date ) and even the young mothers ask for my guiding tips for their child makes me thumbs up that finally I have proved myself......
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